what I remeber most.

What I remember most as a kid.
I cant really say I remember any particular subject or genre of life experiences.
I can say at some point the painful memories and experiences were so overwhelming that's all I could think about.
I remember the nights incarcerated.
The times being treated as though I was a caged animal.
I remember crying into my thin yoga matt they called a mattress.
See those stood out to me the most really yeah the shit covered walls or someone standing there watching as a group of us showered naked rushing to get the filth of jail and abuse out of our bodies. Slowly though I learned how to forcefully push those thoughts away and allow myself to embrace the moment see those negative experiences have allowed me to learn how to treat even the littlest of moments like watching the sunset or the smell of fresh flowers like those were the best things that ever happened in my life and thus my thinking changed and what I remember most now is the happy times the smiles and laughter. Instead of the pain being a driving force in my life its now happiness