Pen and Pencil

Pen,pencil,paper,perseverance.

I rite my feelings down trying to spill the beans.

The tea of my life washed away the courage and fills me with self doubt.

I can't seem to fill the emptiness trying to find love through a means to an end.

My addiction manifest in every area of my life.

Trying to grasp onto what little life I have my own personal lech called my ego fights to drain the life out of my body every chance it gets. 

It latches onto my soul.

I escape its sharp teeth by staying in the moment and practicing self love.

I must and will find my way back to the light and allow it to shine bright on the world.

Just for Today !

The Rose's surrounded me the smell of flowers and sunshine surround me !

I cant help but fill the breath of life inside me.

The consistency of the monster that once held me hostage tries to eat away at my happiness.

But this time it looses stuck in a moment that feels like forever each gulp I take allows me to live in the moment.

Just for today I can find gratitude in being alive.

Today is my day and I will live in love and honesty and move oceans with my drive and ambition.

Ego and pain will no longer cloud my judgment!

Thankful

Thankfulness 

Thankful for 

Cant seem to comprehend I beg for more 

I am lost in thoughts I cant control 

Sometimes I cant figure out 

I just dont know 

I'm grateful yes but I want so much more 

A boy so full of love he continues to crave it more than anything and everything 

But it seems hes cursed a lonley being 

I fill the emptiness with random sex 

There is or was no such thing as an ex 

He wonders why and tries to full this emptiness 

Its okay he will survive another day in the abyss kiss kiss kiss goodbye .