Tuesday, May 6, 2025

The boy with the shackles

It’s kind of crazy how life works.

First they diminished my worth until I started to question my hurt.

Thought I deserved every bit of change.

They broke me, things were never the same. 

I was never really myself but I felt as though I changed.

I slowly became the monster they wanted to be.

Blinded by my own pain, I managed to stay in my own way. 

I was a boy with shackles even when they took them away. 

I lost myself still figuring that out.

Why does it feel like they threw me out. 

I shout and scream. I beg for them to see.

But they constantly looked past until I couldn’t recognize myself.

But it’s my job now to caress my inner child.

As hard as it is, life is so wild. 

Learn to love myself, find me in the weeds.

Even when I feel blinded, I feel my way around until i can see.

I won’t allow society to shackle me anymore. 

Break these generational curses and now I’m worth more.

We fight, we struggle but we fail to recognize that we are blessings to this world by just living our lives.

So let’s continue to push forward until we win this fight give our next generation a better life. 

Dreams

Never thought I could dream. 

My childhood my life was ripped from me.

Taking my power back has been a life long journey.

Wondering thinking why society wants to hurt me.

Think, pray, ask to not take my dream away.

Guessing giving into that thought process was my first mistake.

Shaken to the core can’t get up off the floor.

A dream turned into a nightmare.

But I can’t give up I want more.

Little boys like me never really had the chance to dream.

Had to fight just to eat scripted schemes.

All in all I really lost myself.

Child in me screaming for help!

Dream for me is a chance to live.

Not giving in letting society win. 

I dream of a place, a day , an age where we all can be free 

Don’t judge others allow them to live free.

I want to be in a place where we can just be. 

I’m to white to be Mexican

I’m to white to be Mexican 

But 

Too brown to be white 

They always question what I am 

Pain hides behind my eyes 

I’m too white to be Mexican 

I’m too brown to be white 

So why is it so hard for me to fit in 

God knows I try 

Cant  claim a culture even though it’s mine

I’m too white to be Mexican 

I’m too brown to be white I guess I’ll create a culture One that’s only mineI may be to white to be Mexican or be to brown to be white But it doesn’t mean the blood inside me isn’t mine