In the small dam near twenty five years I've spent on this world. But only two that really stand out to me the most.
First and foremost my mind boggling jarring experience called coming out.
I was so broken then I was a homless skinny tatted formerly incarrcerated Branded thug but not so much thug at all.
See around this time my mom left me months before. Alone and deserted my freinds no longer could open their doors to me. And I had nothing but my weed and my ebt. One man decided to take me in he gave me a home and love so I thought.
As my heart rots I gave it away only well i was getting played my mind torn between the present and the past the old me just couldn't last.
One day I felt forced to tell my truth.
So Instagram was my escape to tell the world.
I'm gayyyyyyyy. I'm still me nothings changed.
But comment after comment left me confused.
Lost a lot of friends but fuck them too I guess.
This moment created the domino effect of self love and acceptance I needed but even when my heart was torn and bleeding it was mending and healing. The moment I accepted myself and my life changed forever for the good and the bad I guess.
This little story led to something different im going to spit a little poem and shift it.
Heart broken torn and put back together.
Took almost six years but it felt like forever.
Accepting me gay fem and all.. I finally came to terms with the fact that my higher power wouldn't let me fall
Confused and used I thought I lost it all. Only 5 foot 4 but dam I stand so tall.
Put my heart back together along with it all no longer homeless or spineless I was ready to try this. Moved a little quick but it was love at first sight shit. I was ready I am ready lets go. Got engaged to a man I never thought I'd know.
My heart was torn put back together and sewn you were able to see past the broken and the old.
I knew rite then and there you were the one for me so not only do I now have a home I now have a family
. A little dog and a cat a lizard and some shit with gills that swim around and dance a complete 180 from the boy I was once. Now none bat and eye or even call me thug.
