Be a man !

There is so much to learn !
So much to do with so little time.
Feeling wat overwelmed from time to time.
I cant help but think what a beautiful life.
As things fall into place I feel my time is coming to finally win this race.
Dreams are goals and goals are reality.
Turn the impossible into something I can fathom see!
I'm tired of living in the past it's time to trust in God's plan.
Lift me up I give you my hand.
Today I've turned from a boy too a man.
It's time too live and be a man.

Today

Today is my day to be the best me I can be.
Today is my day to spread love to others and not expect anything in return.
Today is my day to achieve all my goals and make my wildest dreams come true.
Today is my day to be authentic with myself.
Today is my day to be successful today,today,today is the day where my past no longer defines my future where instead of staying stuck I'm putting one foot in front of the other where achieving my dreams and loving unconditionally is apart of everyday life.
Today is my day !

Facing my fears

Dam! Gulping down a mouthful of fear as I close my eyes and introduce my fear to the world " Hi my name is Daniel and I'm an addict " fear faced! By a faceless man who now just faced a fear who finally has a voice. That wasn't so hard was it ? As many times as I am caressed my ego stroked as compliments fly above my head like the clouds I lay under. "But", "But" I have scars "I'm a failure " "My hair is receding", "I'll never be able to do that". All fears rite ? As a loving hand reassures a dead man that they cannot see the scares, that your hair Is just fine , and a failure yeah rite. Fear faced ! Inside the turmoil starts to disappear even for the briefest of moments. Alone all alone ow so alone I hurt as I stare at the empty walls, a long cord , and a lumpy couch, one lamp with no lamp shade all alone me and my feelings and abandonment as I stare in the vast emptiness I cant help but fear, fear the loneliness that dances around in my soul or the feeling of anger lingering in my mind knowing my mom abandoned me for a man but not knowing if shell return. Here they come , here we are as they knock on that hollow door full of bright smiles and hope, now not so alone. Fear faced!  I am reminded I have and will always have people in my life who care for me. Shackled bags hang under my eyes a not knowing feeling eating at my gut as an ice cold breeze keeps me awake my tiny wrist move about my frail 12 year old body as I'm lugged into a barren waist land called jail and stale faces called pain great me  I move sluggishly into my cell and wonder what's to come my eyes droop as my head hits something cold. Fear faced ! As I sit with murderers and convicts much older than me I'm met with help instead of harm first time in jail only 12 years old and I felt more at home than at home. A man staring down as I wince the sting from his huge hands escaped my cheek as a siren stands next to him whispering words of painful encouragement I stand up strong minded but ready to escape my to my escape a game box, Xbox, and a TV close the door and allow my mind too drift. Fear faced !
My father the only man I've feared beat me constantly and the only escape was my room full of gifts from a mother who does her best. Now let's bring it back, to a day a lonely day as I used my body and gave my soul to man who allowed me to escape my emptiness and encouraged me to be me. It was a post , a paragraph  a few I knew its and goodbyes ! Fear faced 19 years of age a young Latino mixed gay thug confused at the fact that I lost it all friends and family both but gained myself within me struck a bolt of life and a knowing that I've face many fears before and I will face many more !