So lost

So lost.

So out of control.

Can't take this anymore.

Tired of being scared to pursue my dreams.

I guess I'm used to only doing lazy things.

Have this beautiful man.

Broken as can be I'm sure we can work through our misery.

Clouded judgment.

No longer a clouded mind.

Its my mofucking time to shine.

I can do this I know I can.

Even if blood drips down my hands.

Last time I gave up I'm tired.

I'm moving through this fear I don't give a fuck.

These Crazy Times

Its been crazy full of ups and downs some smart ass people and some Karen's some clowns.

 These protest are the highlight of it all as my minority men and women stand tall.

I must admit I had a little fall but now I stand motherfucking tall.

For some reason I feel its my season so dam close to changing my reasons.

Used to numb myself now I deal with this shit.

Quarantine got me feeling myself its a new day its bright in my eyes.

I don't need to go outside to dress super fly.

I'm all over the place constantly asking myself where do I want to go now that I'm not so full of doubt.

All this world got is themselves maybe someone else with a little help.

God pushed me I went thought I was spent.

Guess I have a lot of fight still left.

Met my soul mate this time I didn't reject instead I learned to show love and respect.

Happiness and pain is my common now from sweet kisses to I wonder why or even how I'm on my way blessed as can be only God knows the future and I know the past its time to kick some mofucking ass.