As I sit here

As I sit here and wonder about the future.
I can't help but live in the moment..
Like I can own this. Don't have to control this. I mean things happen for a reason rite.
I'm not quite struggling in life but I'm barley reaching the brim scrapping the top and what not.
Metaphorically speaking I can't see past what's rite Infront of me But lately I've been envisioning some things I couldn't normally see.
See but this is me everything I do and everything in between my life shines bright.
Can't seem to see past the my past but baby this moment is everything fuck what people say.

Lost yet found

Lost yet found.
Not white not brown.
Loosing myself over time.
Yet finding myself now.
Turn and turn around.
I never do bow down to a system created to break me down.
Trying to find my way now.
Society please hear me out.
Beaten laid out. Still in the hood but out the hood now.
Don't need ti gang bang to get my point across. A little to emotional a little to soft.
At least that's what they say.
But I'm not into games.
The loop of life really got me in a daze.
Lost yet found. Not white not brown. I'm just me so let me be for now

Lonely

So lonely.
Can't really open up So nobody know me
Society got straight men So controlling. Even my people think I owe them. Confused about the outcome of my relationships. I do it all just to take their hits. I guess this shits a hit or miss I mean we all be dealing with shit.
So Lonely can't really open up so nobody know me. Society got straight men So controlling
Yall don't own me. I was set up to be lonely. I struggle with my inner demons on a daily. Start seeing shit maybe act out remain lonely.
Crazy part about it all is they don't own me they don't really know me they just base their perception of me off an old homie so controlling. Suck the good out of me like an omen. Felt like giving up but then I looked in the mirror and thought I owe him. A good life one where we are living rite no need to fist fit not even lip fight. Put the shit in ice be nice. Live life. See shit gets lonely but at the same time it allows me to get to know me once you love yourself you aren't so lonely. I laugh as they try and control me. Only person I owe is me. Take a daily step back and say fuck the beef. To me talk isn't cheap you can ruin life's and create misery or you can say one word and give some one the courage to truly be
Themselves without a doubt so fuck lonely especially if they don't want tp get to know me they just don't act rite cuz they got their own insecurities but don't trip I see you not all the stupid things.
People like to say. Bow my head and pray that one day I can love myself enough to attract who I need and not who I want.