It's been awhile since I wrote you a poem.
It's crazy mom how the world shapes us in certain cases hurts us maybe even makes us bitter. Yeah maybe somewhere deep down I can't forgive you or myself for that matter.
Every time I come though it's like I serve my heart on a platter. I swear you missing that light you held onto for so long. I'm sorry I can't stay to long it hurts to see you hurt honestly. I know you never deserved any of this misery. For me the best thing I could do is just stay away because to be honest I don't wana add to your pain what a shame rite. I still struggle but I fight see you think all the poems I write about you are always bad but crazy thing I always say how you gave me my heart and honestly that's the only thing that holds me together when i fall apart. I have hope though I just don't wana miss seeing you get old though. Your a state away and sometimes I can't fill the space it hurts still to know you left me and moved away but I still push forward I know we are all human. Your a people pleaser trying to be cupid I'm sorry if I think it's stupid see I'm a tuff cookie mom I say it raw I don't sugar coat shit for no one including myself I'm tired of people using you and I really wana make you proud it's hard though. To let you in means that if you hurt me again I might give in see I'm still healing from my trauma but it doesn't mean I love you any less mama
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