Why you bugging me?

So much shits on my mind it feels like I'm in a tornado half the time I get the money I grind
I shine he shines we all shine but when will I get mine
I feel sad today
Today I feel okay
My minds filled with so much shit today
My stomach hurts im in pain
I feel like shit
Like I'm dying today
I try and love but these men seem to strip my love away
No not today
My insides are hurting I don't really wana play games
They say I have some insane ways I'm just overwhelming loving but I thought that would be okay.
I guess I just can't take on other people's pain.
Tugging me let other people start running me just so I could people please but they ain't they're anyways they been distant the minute I didn't shift to fit their description.
Listen gotta really dig in these people fumble constantly when I'm trying to win.
See a lot is bugging me my bodies screaming please treat me like the king you know you are. My mind is pushing forward but still trying to figure out to heal from emotional scars. But heart hurts it wants to love but started to raise its bars. I mean we went through the black plague and still went hard trying to live large. Can you feel it this some real shit what's bugging me is the fact that my community is so broken they rather take dick over love. Maybe a few health relationships to look up too but it's simply not enough. See my future my past and the times that I didn't give a fuck still tug and bug like some ancient flies that don't realize their bugs. How fun see the problem is that I'm bugged from the internal shit and from what comes from above. How fun all low energy and shit see my bodies been talking shit but I answered it the best I know how at least but in order to defeat the inner pain I gotta dig deep.  Be boogie a bit talk is cheap I wana reap the benefits the system did on my life but sometimes I feel like I'm cursed to not live life. Just fight but why I gotta fight to live why my people gotta survive and give in win

It's all okay papas did you forget your a thug at some point didn't know how to love thought you belong dead but believed in what's above. How dumb to be bugged by such mediocre problems do you not remember being homeless broken and on drugs how money to show your body love and if you did you'd use it on drugs. You got quality problems now I mean your an adult you might still feel sixteen but that shit isn't your fault it is your job to change the dynamic I know some people should get beat up for calling you fagget but what would that solve what it help you feel tall hell naw that ain't you. Whatever bugging you got you acting like a fool shit ain't cool your better than all that I mean you helped people through instilled life into motherfuckers acting like fools you share your love with the world but you need to just share it with you. See what's bugging you is an easy solve kind of like those pills you take that dissolved pain solved but it takes work and effort like a doctors appointment you need to put in the footwork dig deep cuz what seems weird to you might not be weird to me. I'm rite their with you between the sheets I'm your inner strength I'm your inner being you've done been in hell and said ow well ima find a way out and with one shift your whole world changed now its time to stop letting shit bug you and hide the pain away. Your worth more papi you got this your a real quick and Whatever you want you got it.