Mental Download

Beep, beep, beep, Dam this download is taking longer than expected.
I mean you would have thought I've already learned these lessons.
I've always said talk is cheap  but when it comes to my self love it's like ordering a 99 cent hamburger on repeat.
Stuck in a space where I can't seem to move.
One step, one thought, that's all it takes. I know I'll never give up and I'll make it somewhere along the way.
I started to realize I was designed to win.
Directed the ideology that I was a sin dig deep and pulled apart the feelings within. Realized that just because I was gay doesn't mean I'm any less connected to God. Had to pull the band aid off and really get raw. Give in to my old tendencies he'll naw. A little to honest like I'm giving it to them without the condom on. Consistently abused by the person looking in the mirror. I was so scared the world wouldn't except me for being queer. I keep hurting myself and pretend like I don't care. I swear I left the hood behind but theseOld school memories are seared in my mind. Built some barriers just to break them down again. Really had to educate myself on what it is to be a man. Constantly scared always facing those fears. I know I'm close man I'm almost there. The worlds so stuck in there pain and fears. It's funny how people Stull don't accept us queers. Mirrors mirrors mirrors they say look at yourself but I really think sometimes it takes others to point your bullshit out. Beep beep beep im done now im out.