But within that crazy is a love unmatched a loyalty unheard and a pain so deep one may never get the opportunity to heal. Life is full of winding roads and gusts of confusion that always seem to blow at the wrong time. Holidays at some point were a light untouched.
It was a ceremony to celebrate.
Rooms filled with smiling faces and smells of home-cooked dishes.
It's a bliss that I miss honestly.
I dont know how things came to be the way they are. It went from that to my family can't even sit together and eat.
All of us angry and can't see.
I wish for a day again were we can all be at peace.
Sometimes I'm scared it will never be the same. I guess the scares just run to deep.
Holidays were sacred but now I leave broken and shaken. Asking God to please change this but it's an internal struggle that needs to change its all over the place I guess. I pray one day we can all sit together in peace instead of puffing out our chest but I guess for now this is what I get. But I can't help but dream and reminise see I like to see the best in life even when I struggle and fight. I sometimes live in the moment actually most times. I lived for too long in a miserable world stuck in time. But this time I can see the brighter times I choose to see the joy in life even when it hurts why change who I am because others see love as obsurd. Grateful to see the light this time even if others are blind. Grateful for the the happy and the painful times.